Dear Kids,
Sometimes I am just more irritated than other times. I wish I could put a finger on why or what happens. Sometimes I know exactly when the irritation starts, and when I allow it to expand and continue. Sometimes I can immediately stop it and take control. Sometimes it just escalates and I feel irritated about everything that is happening around me.
This is one of my biggest challenges as a mother.
It was just a hard day today, for not really any specific reason. I was more on edge... and mother is the heart of the home. When I am irritated, it goes down to everyone around. I didn't have a blow up at any point. I didn't get really upset or yell. But I just was irritated, A LOT.
Hormones... pregnancy. Yep, I will blame it on pregnancy.
But in reality, I can't blame it on anything but understanding that when I am irritated I am choosing to be that way. I am choosing to be irritated and stay in that space.
I know there are proactive ways of getting around it. I know that if I were to go takes certain herbs it would help a lot. I know that I need to go take a break and breath a little bit. I know that doing small things to calm down my irritation speaks volumes to the inside of my body.
But did I choose to do any of that today? Nope. Just kept going.
I think we all have those days though. Sometimes we are more proactive than other times. Most of the time the key is to NOT repeat it again tomorrow. Break the problem so that it doesn't over take two days. Then the irritation has only conquered one day and I can take over better tomorrow.
So tomorrow... here is what I am going to do. Get up and get ready to be at the gym at a reasonable hour. Go swimming with a friend. Smile. Laugh. Spread smiling and laughter to my kids. Have family home evening. Clean my house. Pretty simple day. But I will choose to make strides inside of my spiritual focus. I will use the enticements around me for my spiritual growth. The enticements being the little irritations that happened today.
So there we have it. Just try to be a little better tomorrow.
I love you,
Your Mom
