Hurting Heart Strings

Dear Gabriel,

I am going through 'heart pain' tonight. I don't want to go into all the details of the situation, but this last week with a family situation has been awful. There have been so many feelings of anger, uncertainty, doubt, hopelessness, and fear that has been pervading. There have been boundaries set which are hard. There have been experiences that have twisted, hit, cut and bruised heart strings. There have been many hearts broken. There will probably be more in the future.

I don't know how Heavenly Father does it. He sees his children hurting and bruised and broken. He wants to gather them up in His arms - but every time He tries to they just wiggle out and push Him away. I feel the same way. Every time I have tried to reach out and love it has been thrown back in my face - and a lot of people's faces. It is so important to stay close to the spirit.

I wish I could see the end from the beginning. But I can't. That is why the spirit must guide. No matter what I cannot allow manipulation, I cannot allow violence and I cannot allow disrespect. There are boundaries which must be set. But it is hard. I look at you as a child and I just pray that you will decide to make the right choices as you get older.

I love you,

Your Mom