Dear Kids,
This is a lesson that I keep learning over and over again - and mainly because in the moment of the lesson it is painful enough that I forget that the Lord's timing really is perfect - even when the reality of waiting for that timing is really painful.
Your dad just got a job with a small, growing company doing dispatching for oil trucks. We are SO excited about it. The potential with the company is AWESOME because of the growth rate they have ahead of them and what Brent can do to help them with his talents and gifts. He interviewed with the company in February. We felt REALLY good about it and we thought it was perfect timing because the play was going to be starting and it would have fit into the schedule really well, and the IRS would have been able to be handled because we would have more money to pay people that we needed to... etc.
But he didn't get the job. We were SO disappointed when we found out. It actually took both of us a few days to get past not getting it.
So then we moved on. And the IRS started garnishing wages. And the play was intense. And all the extra stuff was not getting done. And Brent kept working MANY hours a week and find as many side jobs as he could to pay bills. And we didn't get the bills paid. And Brent stayed at Red Mountain, getting paid nothing. And we had to go to the church for help. And Brent had a really hard time with dealing with it all. And I had a hard time dealing with it all. And we weren't doing well together. And he got really sick. And the family got sick. And I was totally stressed out. And the stress kept growing.
You get the picture.
Well, after Brent met with the Bishop and told him our situation, he was hard on Brent... maybe I shouldn't say hard, but he was blunt. But he called a few days later and he had found a guy in our ward that does EXACTLY what we need. So Brent went and met with him.
This is where the timing of the Lord comes in. When Brent was talking to him about everything, we found out that working with him instead of the other places we were working through is going to be a HUGE blessing. Brent doesn't have to put in the intense paperwork as the other place. It is very minimal output on Brent's part (which is HUGE for Brent because it really stresses him out to put together all the details of paperwork, so much so, that he just puts it off.... for years!). Basically he takes our case and presents it as a big lump sum to the IRS and then asks for a settlement.
Here is the cool part.
When he was going through the numbers of the settlement, BECAUSE of how much we HAVEN'T been making the total of the settlement for what we will owe the IRS when everything is said and done will be like $3,000. Now that's AMAZING!!! Getting it down to just $3,000 is AMAZING, it is totally doable. And the whole reason it will go down that far is BECAUSE of how poor we have been for the last while.
So if we would have gotten that other opportunity when we wanted it and when we thought was best, it would have actually been worse for us. Because we would have gone with the OTHER company, who wouldn't have been able to get it down that far, and because we never would have found this other guy (as a result of going to the Bishop for help), and because of the opportunity that didn't happen when we wanted it to.
I just think looking at the timing of all of that is just amazing. It is such a huge testimony builder for me that the Lord DOES have us in the palm of His hands... even when it maybe doesn't feel like it because it is really just painful and really hard in the moment and dealing with the reality of it all seems too much. Even with all of our mistakes up to this point and all our weaknesses up to this point and how much better we could have handled things up to this point... He still has mercy on us to get us back on track.
So we shall see what happens from here. But as of today, tonight, I am breathing a sigh of relief. Sweet, shoulder lifting, relief.
I love you,
Your Mom
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