Dear Kids,
The world has rapidly changed in the last two weeks.
The Corona Virus hit the world and I'm sure that we will look back on this as a time of major shifting and change for everything that happens around us. There have been so many things building up in our time of prophecy... but in the last two weeks it has exponentially expanded.
There is a lot of debate about the virus and how deadly it is or isn't, how it should be handled, whether it's a hoax or government conspiracy...
But what we do know is that the Church of Jesus Christ is moving through some major change inside of it all.
All the temples are closed down (scripture in Enos fulfilled)
All the church houses, meetings and activities have ceased and we are now doing church at home
Missionaries are coming home from around the world and MTC's are now doing training online
The prophecy of the missionaries coming home is something I always wondered about how it would look. I never realized it would look like this. Same thing with the covenant prophecy being cut off - well here we are. It's all cut off to the membership of the church right now. There are so many rapid changes happening all over the place. It's phenomenal. It's huge. It's monumental.
The Savior is coming back!!! I have had so many emotions about it all in the last couple of days, it's hard to even really process them or try to explain the depth of the feelings in my heart about what is happening.
Conference is coming up next weekend and I can't wait! With it, we are going to be experiencing even more movement toward the Savior coming back.
I feel like the virus has really shaken everyone up, and hopefully refocused a lot of people on what is really important. Schools are all shut down and things are only happening online. No groups over 10 people are okay to get together (advised anyway not to get together) in order to stop the spread of the virus. Basically in two weeks this virus has shut down the world.
It's a fascinating study of humanity. It shows our fragility mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically. People are running to the stores and the shelves are always empty. It's unlike anything that has happened in our lifetime.
I know it has really caused me to refocus A LOT. My inward heart wants to be right by the Savior as everything is happening in Zion. I want to be there with Him and the Saints. For the last few years I just haven't really been able to feel about whether or not He would be coming sooner or later in my lifetime.
I think I've had issues with my feelings about it because of my own parents. They have been preparing for the 2nd Coming their whole lives. I remember thinking that I was never going to graduate from high school because the Savior would be back first. Then here I am years later and still everything in the world is moving. I've had convoluted feelings about it all because of seeing the focus of my parents (which I'm SO GRATEFUL for, they are devoted faithful saints), but then also seeing how they have aged and they have no retirement and didn't really "plan for the future" and "plant their cherry trees" so to speak.
So I haven't wanted to get into later life and not be ready and prepared to take care of ourselves. We are a long way off financially from where we need to be, but I want to be prepared for it. I don't want to be aging and have no way of taking care of ourselves.
it has been distracting for me, that's for sure. I've just had to come to the point of saying, "The Savior could come back in 5, 10, 20, 50 or 100 years! We just have no idea!" Which is true...
But in the last couple of weeks it has rejuvenated me again! I feel like, "Okay! Things are moving!"
Inside of those feelings though are the heaviness and magnitude of really what that means. There is so much to do. There is so much to happen. There is so much that is going to go on. There are so many people that are going to hurt. There are so many people that will need help. It's big. There will be a lot to do.
I have had a desire to do family history again - I haven't felt that way for a while. Probably because I can't go to the temple now, so I need to do something with my temple time. I need to spend time on it. I am going to schedule a time with Kalea to show me her magic I think in that way.
I don't know what the future holds, but I know that we are being prepared for miracles to come and calamities beyond our imagination. My heart can't wait and sinks at the thought all at the same time. I am feeling just a little bit what the prophets of the ages have felt when they have seen the destruction of so many people.
I have felt a huge pull to get off social media and do other things with my time. Which has been fascinating to experience. I have had an addiction there that I've needed to let go of, that's for sure.
I just pray that we will be up to the task ahead. I pray that the Lord will show me how to call fire down from heaven when I must, and how to let go to His will with death of loved ones, how to have eternal perspective as earthquakes are happening all around me and people I love suffer. I pray that I will be able to call back the armies of nations, but yet be kind to a child and stay in the moment with them as long as I need.
He's called me here for a mighty work - but right now especially it is about depositing into the souls of my children. This has refocused me on my home like crazy. I feel like I've been distracted emotionally from homeschooling and my children because of wanting to add more money to our family. I have been thinking about how to add more value to our lives monetarily and trying to figure out how to do that. It's been a distraction from my most important calling. If we only have a matter of years before the Savior comes back, I have to be here with my spirit and emotions FULL BOARD.
My desire for earning money in the last couple weeks has left completely - which is interesting because I don't know what the future holds with the economy. It is going to be hard on a lot of people because traveling has completely stopped, cruises grounded, Vegas shut down, entertainment industry completely down... the economy is VERY dicy and it's going to be felt for the next WHILE. I don't know what is going to happen with Brent's job - but you know, I'm at peace with it all. We will do what we need to do. The Lord will provide. I know that. He always has. He always will. I've had too many evidences of that.
My focus is on my family and on my faith. I can put energy to help my family in the universe through God being the how inside of my thoughts, feelings and energy that I put out. The time is NOW to put all these skills to use in my every moment of my everyday.
Then the Lord can use me as He needs to.
I love you kids.
You were made for days like this. You were made for days that are ahead. Remember that. you were made for this.
I love you so much.
Your Mom
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