Gabe Almost Burned The House Down

Dear Kids,

So I have to tell you about an experience that happened with the house almost burned down.

Gabe has been playing with fire - A LOT. Most of the time he has been good about asking me and I tell him where is appropriate to light a fire. But this particular day, he didn't ask.

He grabbed the lighter and went outside and started to light dried leaves on fire, then blowing them out. He thought he blew one out and evidently put it on top of our outside toy box then came back inside.

Well, I started smelling smoke, and I dismissed it because they light fires in the field behind our house SO OFTEN I just didn't think twice. Of course, looking back, I had that "nagging" feeling which was obviously from the spirit, but I just didn't listen.

I was on the phone with someone when there was a loud pounding on the door. There was a man that said, "You need to get out of the house NOW! There is a fire out here!". I was in my back bedroom, so I didn't hear all of it, just muffled yelling, but the kids came running down the hallway and said, "Mom! There is a man who is trying to kidnap us!"

So I went outside and immediately knew there was an issue. I went around the side of the house and sure enough, there was a HUGE fire that was centered on the outside toy box thing. There were two men there that were actively putting it out. They had seen the smoke and jumped the back fence and were actively working on it when I got out there. I was just in shock!

They were AMAZING. They got it put out before the fire department arrived. Everything was okay, thanks to these guardian angels. After the craziness of the emergency was done I got a chance to talk to the kids and that's when I found out that Gabe had been playing with the lighter and dried leaves. He said he thought he blew it out, but obviously it didn't. There must have been something on top of the bin that caught on fire, because the bin was plastic.

The fire department got to the house and did a bunch of checks to make sure that it didn't get into the insulation in the roof, they said that is where the real danger comes in. The firefighters were awesome as well, so good with Gabe, so good with talking with him about what happened and the seriousness of playing with fire.

Gabe felt AWFUL. He realized the seriousness of what happened and he cried on his bed for about 30 minutes saying, "I almost killed my family!". He definitely felt the impact of what happened. Elijah said, "I'm NEVER going to play with fire!". All of the kids saw how big the fire was when we got out there before it was put out. Gabe spent the rest of the day spraying the bricks to cool them down, then the next day he got to scrub as much of the soot off the house as possible. He didn't like it, but it was a good part of the lesson.

The other part that I talked to the kids about was how this situation was an answer to our prayers. I pointed that we ALWAYS pray for guardian angels to be surrounding our home protecting us. I told them that our two angels, who listened to the spirit to come help us, was an answer to that prayer. They listened to the spirit when I didn't. I probably felt the spirit nag me about it when it was small enough to take care of, but since I didn't listen the angels around our home went and got someone else to help. They saved us! What an amazing answer to prayer that was.

I love you guys. Even when you make those childhood mistakes that are hard and serious - the price tag of your mistakes is going to keep going up, but I love you the same and NO MATTER WHAT.

And - don't play with fire!!

Love,

Your Mom

Janet and Jaylyn Came To See The Show

Dear Kids,

We had so many people come to support us to see the Fiddler on the Roof show that we just finished. I'm so grateful for all the support.

The people who surprised me that came were Jaylyn and Janet. I'm SO GRATEFUL that they came, for the healing process to start.

You don't know this yet, but you will find out soon enough when you are older, that your dad and his sisters have had quite the rollercoaster with their relationships.

A couple years ago several of Janet's kids made the choice to sexual molest each other. It was all a heavy and horrible situation - especially for Janet I know - but during all of it we had the VERY CLEAR impression from the spirit that we had to have complete distance from their family.

Janet didn't like that very well, and Jaylyn felt very protective of Janet. They both had left the church by that point and it was very hard for your dad to come that conclusion - but it was something that we had to do.

Well, just recently we went up to SLC as a family. Janet had a new baby with her boyfriend, Karl, and your dad texted about coming to see her. Up to this point your dad had tried to reach out mainly on birthday's and holidays, but other than that he hadn't felt the push to really do much else. We had the answer very clearly that we had to just keep distance.

Your Nana, dad's mom, has been feeling for quite a few months that pain for the strain in the relationship with her kids. And she had been begging your dad to reach out to Janet. So trying to see her new baby was the first step.

Well, she refused and sent quite a nasty text to Brent. We weren't surprised by it because of the strain energetically that we had been feeling for quite a while. But it was the catalyst for me writing a letter to Janet.

I wrote to her and explained that we didn't feel guilt or shame for the decision we made for distance, we were quite clear that we had to keep our distance until the time was right again, knowing that when we felt like it was okay to rekindle relationships that the hurt would be deep and she might not choose to have us in her life. That was part of the choice we made and it was hard, but it was right and it was from the Lord.

I also sent Jaylyn a letter telling her that I couldn't enable a relationship with her and Brent, but that I would love to try and rekindle our relationship. I KNEW I had to send those letters, the spirit had been working on me for quite some time to send them and I followed that direction.

Well, it was the catalyst for helping things to heal. Jaylyn and Janet came down to see the show, which was a miracle, and we went out to dinner with them afterwards and were able to have a very pleasant and fun conversation. I'm grateful for their sacrifice to let down the walls of anger that they have had towards us in order to start to repair what had been damaged.

Life is hard sometimes! Especially with family stuff! But I think, especially with everything happening in the world, that this is the last of the time we will have together. I don't know how the next few years are going to go - but it is going to be ROCKY for a while.

I hope I can teach you enough so you have a foundation that will hold you through all of this.

I love you kids. Even if as you grow you have disagreements together, know that if you stay close to the gospel, it can all be worked out with the Lords' help.

I love you,

Your Mom

Fiddler Ending Miracle

Dear Kids,

We just finished being in "Fiddler on the Roof" just this last weekend. What an amazing experience it was to be part of that production and that cast. Seven months of our lives have been dedicated to this show and we stuck out throughout all of the Covid madness!

The Monday before the show ended your dad had an experience with the spirit. It told him, "Hold on and you will see a miracle this weekend." Well, the weekend came, we did the last show on Saturday and then Sunday morning your dad asked, "Well... so what was the miracle?"

"Brent - you got to finish your show. I stayed my hand so you and this community could experience the show to the end." That was God's miracle.

Of course that was very emotional for Brent and then he felt very specifically that we are not going to be seeing or doing anything with the theater for a while.

Kids, the world right now is crazy. I know you are all being shielded from the craziness of it all. You have such good childhoods. You get to sleep, eat, do your chores and school work and just run around and play with your friends. What amazing childhoods you are having. I'm so grateful everyday for the blessings of that.

I don't know how much longer it is going to last.

These last few months with everything that has happened in 2020 has just rocked people's worlds. Ours included. For awhile now your dad and I have known that we want to do a preparedness property.

Eight years ago the spirit told Brent to do a preparedness property. And eight years later we haven't seen a way for it to come to pass. Your dad and I have gone through a lot of worry and regret with questions like, "Did we miss the opportunity? Did we miss something from the spirit? Did we miss the chance to move forward with it? What else could we have done?"

I personally have gone through a lot of regret and worry about those questions. I know there are so many things we could have done better with our finances... But I also know that I feel like we have done the best with what we have and we need an opportunity to increase our financial stewardship. And I don't know how that is going to happen.

I am really trying hard not to have scarcity thoughts about it being "too late". BUT, I must remember that from January-March/April your dad and I were both having quite amazing experiences in our spiritual lives and so many confirmations from the Lord. We both felt like, "It's coming - you will do this." And even though we felt the movement of expansion, the world has started to crumble around us.

But - I also KNOW that abundance is available no matter what is happening in the world. I KNOW that. I know these laws of God. And just because Covid hit and just because things are going nuts, it doesn't mean that our personal confirmations were wrong.

So now that the show is over your dad and I are getting back on track with our spiritual centeredness. There is so much to do. There is so much to learn and grow from. There is so much to do with preparedness and getting ready. There are so many people to help. BUT, none of it can happen if we aren't spiritual centered and where we need to be with the Lord in our hearts.

You know that I have been attacked like crazy in the last couple of months with my spiritual experiences. My faith is coming back. I am building it back up again. I know that Satan doesn't want me to fulfill my mission and I know the Lord has given me power - great power - in persuading the hearts of those around me to believe in HIM. I am an influencer. And it is time to step into those footsteps. I want to influence for the gospel.

Your dad and I need to work on the podcasts. We will get done as many as possible. Especially now when the world is going to be falling apart all around us - people are going to need to know how to be spiritually centered - and the Lord has been clear that our message much be different and more updated. This is the message that the Lord has given us to give. We can step into the stewardship.

I also know that we are still called for the missions the Lord wants us to fulfill. The Lord knows where we are. I know of so many stories of people who's lives changed in an instant with a different job, opportunity, business dealing, someone they knew... and I know the Lord knows where we are. If He needs us to have a bigger stewardship - then HE will make it happen. We must continue to have our spiritual centeredness so we will Hear Him and listen for when the spirit tells us to act.

I love you kids. Your world you're going to grow up in is going to be completely different than mine. I hope you are ready.

Love,

Your Mom