Dear Natalia,
I came out from getting ready for the gym this morning and found the kitchen floor covered... SOAKED in water. I wish I would have taken a picture of it.
I stood there and looked at you. You had moved the ladder to the fridge and filling up your cup with water from the fridge, then you proceeded to dump it onto the floor. I watched you do it a couple of times before I interrupted you. Part of my goal today is to take a deep breath before anything I might react to and handle it with the spirit instead.
I said, "Talia, what are you doing?"
"I am getting water in my cup mom!"
"What about the water on the floor?"
"Oh....(looks at the floor, then back to me)... I didn't want that water."
Taking a moment to react really allowed me to see the humor in the situation. We got some towels and cleaned it up. I took about 3 towels and we had to ring them out a couple of times. It was covered.
You just want to experiment with life and everything in it. I am grateful for your adventurous soul and I hope you know I never want you to change, even if it means that there are many messes to clean up.
I love you,
Your Mom
Monday, March 25, 2013
Power In A Walk
Dear Handsome,
There is a lot of power in just taking a walk. You and I have had some 'testing' days in the last little while. Yesterday was no exception. We got done with our discussion and I had so much energy, negative mainly. I thought maybe cleaning the kitchen would do it, or hanging up my clothes, or something else to move my body.
It was 11:44pm and I knew I could not go to bed with you yet. I could not lay beside you until I had reset myself and could touch and love you. So I decided to go for a walk. How powerful that is! I walked to the park, I walked around the neighborhood, I walked on the golf course and then back to the park again.
I was able to kneel down a few times when I needed to really concentrate on part of my prayer. I was able to walk fast and then slow depending on what was going through my mind. I was able to whisper and I was able to just talk out loud to the stars and heavens. I went through all my emotions that I needed to get out.
My whole goal is that I could not come back to the house angry or negative. I had to have love in my heart and reset my mind, knowing that I could wake up this morning and kiss you, hug you and love you as much as I possibly could.
There is a lot of power inside of going for a walk, having alone time with God and resetting yourself. I think I might make it as much of a nightly routine as possible. I want to start reviewing my day and then creating the next day in advance with God. Going for a walk is the perfect way for me to get that done.
I hope you know I love you and no matter what we can work through this.
I love you,
Your Lover
There is a lot of power in just taking a walk. You and I have had some 'testing' days in the last little while. Yesterday was no exception. We got done with our discussion and I had so much energy, negative mainly. I thought maybe cleaning the kitchen would do it, or hanging up my clothes, or something else to move my body.
It was 11:44pm and I knew I could not go to bed with you yet. I could not lay beside you until I had reset myself and could touch and love you. So I decided to go for a walk. How powerful that is! I walked to the park, I walked around the neighborhood, I walked on the golf course and then back to the park again.
I was able to kneel down a few times when I needed to really concentrate on part of my prayer. I was able to walk fast and then slow depending on what was going through my mind. I was able to whisper and I was able to just talk out loud to the stars and heavens. I went through all my emotions that I needed to get out.
My whole goal is that I could not come back to the house angry or negative. I had to have love in my heart and reset my mind, knowing that I could wake up this morning and kiss you, hug you and love you as much as I possibly could.
There is a lot of power inside of going for a walk, having alone time with God and resetting yourself. I think I might make it as much of a nightly routine as possible. I want to start reviewing my day and then creating the next day in advance with God. Going for a walk is the perfect way for me to get that done.
I hope you know I love you and no matter what we can work through this.
I love you,
Your Lover
Sunday, March 10, 2013
Crazy Impulses
Dear Kids,
So I get these crazy 'impulses' every once and a while (okay very often) that sometimes I follow through with and other times, I definitely don't!
I was telling the group at family dinner tonight when I had a crazy impulse to attack my Stake Presidents hair when I was playing the organ during ward conference a couple of years ago. The Stake Pres was sitting, NO JOKE, right in front of me about 6 inches from the organ's bench. His hair was very, shall we say, particular hair. All meeting long I had to suppress the urge to just attack his head and fluff his hair into the next decade. I literally had to sit on my hands.
Other crazy impulses include, but not limited to:
So, I am going to make a goal to live by my impulses more... unless of course it includes driving head-on into a car and killing all of us. I promise I won't put you in any danger, but we could have more adventures together, don't you think?
I love you,
Your Mom
So I get these crazy 'impulses' every once and a while (okay very often) that sometimes I follow through with and other times, I definitely don't!
I was telling the group at family dinner tonight when I had a crazy impulse to attack my Stake Presidents hair when I was playing the organ during ward conference a couple of years ago. The Stake Pres was sitting, NO JOKE, right in front of me about 6 inches from the organ's bench. His hair was very, shall we say, particular hair. All meeting long I had to suppress the urge to just attack his head and fluff his hair into the next decade. I literally had to sit on my hands.
Other crazy impulses include, but not limited to:
- Driving into the other lane of traffic, just to see if people will swerve.
- Have a high speed chase with the police, while evil laughing in the car.
- Go and paint a huge mural on the side of a big building.
- Hop in the car and drive and drive and drive just to see where we end up. (I have wanted to do this one for years and never have yet)
- Soak the backyard full of dirt and just roll around in it all day (this WILL be happening this summer, I promise).
- Run down the middle of the street in the rain while singing at the top of my lungs.
So, I am going to make a goal to live by my impulses more... unless of course it includes driving head-on into a car and killing all of us. I promise I won't put you in any danger, but we could have more adventures together, don't you think?
I love you,
Your Mom
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Finding Significance
Dear Kids,
Something you will find out about me, if you don't already know it, is that I have a need to have attention, have success, be well-known, make a difference, feel significant... etc. It has always been a part of my personality and always been a part of who I am.
For years I used to fight this about myself, because I would be teased about my need for it. But it is something that I have come accept as a good thing as long as I use it right.
Well, the last few days I have been having conversations with and/or been party to conversations with women and men talking about their latest adventures, latest achievements and big opportunities that have been presented to them. And I have found myself starting to get jealous of it. There are so many stories I have been listening to that I think, "OH - I want to do that!" or "I could be a part of that" or "I know my skills could be used for that".
I have thought about how to squeeze all these different opportunities into my life, but then I look around me and I have a nursing baby, a boy who is learning like a maniac everyday and a girl who is on the go all the time. And at this point in my life I have to remember, that THIS is my chapter.
There are going to be plenty of opportunities that will always come along. There are going to be many ways I am going to be a leader again, a public speaker, a teacher and a motivator. Those are the things I LOVE and adore to do. But right now, I must be those things for YOU. There are teaching moments here, there are speaking moments here, there are motivating moments constantly HERE.
I can't have a scarcity mentality that if I don't take all these opportunities right now and jump at them, then I won't be missing out... I am just saving them for later. There is no fear of loss in God's eyes, and so I will no allow it in mine.
I KNOW there are so many women who feel the same way as I do. But my time will come again. For right now, I will and choose to find happiness in finding my significance with you instead.
I love you,
Your Mom
Something you will find out about me, if you don't already know it, is that I have a need to have attention, have success, be well-known, make a difference, feel significant... etc. It has always been a part of my personality and always been a part of who I am.
For years I used to fight this about myself, because I would be teased about my need for it. But it is something that I have come accept as a good thing as long as I use it right.
Well, the last few days I have been having conversations with and/or been party to conversations with women and men talking about their latest adventures, latest achievements and big opportunities that have been presented to them. And I have found myself starting to get jealous of it. There are so many stories I have been listening to that I think, "OH - I want to do that!" or "I could be a part of that" or "I know my skills could be used for that".
I have thought about how to squeeze all these different opportunities into my life, but then I look around me and I have a nursing baby, a boy who is learning like a maniac everyday and a girl who is on the go all the time. And at this point in my life I have to remember, that THIS is my chapter.
There are going to be plenty of opportunities that will always come along. There are going to be many ways I am going to be a leader again, a public speaker, a teacher and a motivator. Those are the things I LOVE and adore to do. But right now, I must be those things for YOU. There are teaching moments here, there are speaking moments here, there are motivating moments constantly HERE.
I can't have a scarcity mentality that if I don't take all these opportunities right now and jump at them, then I won't be missing out... I am just saving them for later. There is no fear of loss in God's eyes, and so I will no allow it in mine.
I KNOW there are so many women who feel the same way as I do. But my time will come again. For right now, I will and choose to find happiness in finding my significance with you instead.
I love you,
Your Mom
Sunday, March 3, 2013
Volunteering Your Time
Dear Kids,
We are all moved into our new home. Time for another adventure. I just wanted to write about the 'Mormon Mob'.
Yesterday morning we got up early to get everything ready for moving. At 10am we had volunteers trickle in. It is amazing to see people come and volunteer their time on a Saturday morning, when there are a ton of other things they could be doing. Everyone worked so hard to get us all packed up and ready to go for the first load over here.
Then when we got to our new home (on Silk Tree Circle in Bloomington Hills) there were 6 more volunteers just waiting for us. The church is just amazing.
I remember thinking that on my mission, how amazed I was at the systems of the church that we take for granted so much. There are skills and abilities the church teaches us that we don't even realize we are being taught! Volunteering, working hard, reaching out, helping a neighbor, teaching your kids to do the same... so many things that are easy to take advantage of when it is so prevalent in our culture.
There were quite a few young men who came over to help, and immediately I thought of you boys, Gabe and Elijah, in the future helping other families in our same situation. The gift of volunteering your time on a Saturday morning for a family is immeasurable. We couldn't have done it without them.
Love you,
Your Mom
We are all moved into our new home. Time for another adventure. I just wanted to write about the 'Mormon Mob'.
Yesterday morning we got up early to get everything ready for moving. At 10am we had volunteers trickle in. It is amazing to see people come and volunteer their time on a Saturday morning, when there are a ton of other things they could be doing. Everyone worked so hard to get us all packed up and ready to go for the first load over here.
Then when we got to our new home (on Silk Tree Circle in Bloomington Hills) there were 6 more volunteers just waiting for us. The church is just amazing.
I remember thinking that on my mission, how amazed I was at the systems of the church that we take for granted so much. There are skills and abilities the church teaches us that we don't even realize we are being taught! Volunteering, working hard, reaching out, helping a neighbor, teaching your kids to do the same... so many things that are easy to take advantage of when it is so prevalent in our culture.
There were quite a few young men who came over to help, and immediately I thought of you boys, Gabe and Elijah, in the future helping other families in our same situation. The gift of volunteering your time on a Saturday morning for a family is immeasurable. We couldn't have done it without them.
Love you,
Your Mom
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