Finding Significance

Dear Kids,

Something you will find out about me, if you don't already know it, is that I have a need to have attention, have success, be well-known, make a difference, feel significant... etc. It has always been a part of my personality and always been a part of who I am.

For years I used to fight this about myself, because I would be teased about my need for it. But it is something that I have come accept as a good thing as long as I use it right.

Well, the last few days I have been having conversations with and/or been party to conversations with women and men talking about their latest adventures, latest achievements and big opportunities that have been presented to them. And I have found myself starting to get jealous of it. There are so many stories I have been listening to that I think, "OH - I want to do that!" or "I could be a part of that" or "I know my skills could be used for that".

I have thought about how to squeeze all these different opportunities into my life, but then I look around me and I have a nursing baby, a boy who is learning like a maniac everyday and a girl who is on the go all the time. And at this point in my life I have to remember, that THIS is my chapter.

There are going to be plenty of opportunities that will always come along. There are going to be many ways I am going to be a leader again, a public speaker, a teacher and a motivator. Those are the things I LOVE and adore to do. But right now, I must be those things for YOU. There are teaching moments here, there are speaking moments here, there are motivating moments constantly HERE.

I can't have a scarcity mentality that if I don't take all these opportunities right now and jump at them, then I won't be missing out... I am just saving them for later. There is no fear of loss in God's eyes, and so I will no allow it in mine.

I KNOW there are so many women who feel the same way as I do. But my time will come again. For right now, I will and choose to find happiness in finding my significance with you instead.

I love you,

Your Mom