There have been a few friends who have been having issues with their older kids lately. I have been finding out about the struggles their teenagers are having with pornography, dating, chastity issues, drugs, alcohol... all the *major* choices that can affect someone for their whole life.
My heart just ACHES for them.
After some news again today, as soon as I got off the phone I just looked all three of you and wanted to freeze all of you. You are all so innocent, so sweet, so pure, so good.
Gabe, you were on your 'walkie talkie' talking to your dad as he was across the street working on something. You were so excited to just be cool and talk on your walkie talkie, saying things like, "So how's it going dad?"... and "Yes, I can still see you, can you see me?"... and "Hey, dad, I can see a snail, he is going really slow".
Elijah, you were trying to walk, looking like a crazy alien with your arms waving sporadically in the air. Then falling down, looking up at me and smiling, and then trying again with determination.
I wanted to take that moment and just freeze you! No matter how hard it is to be a mom of young kids, no matter how exhausting it is... I can still protect you from everything out there. You aren't affected by all the filth and craziness of the world yet and how I wish it could just stay that way forever. I would much rather deal with the trials right now than the trials of when you really start to make the choices that really matter.
So I am soaking up all that I can from your perfect spirits right now, and how beautiful the innocence is that you have everyday. Remember, as you get older, that the world is harsh. There are hard choices, and sometimes you will fall. This free agency thing can be tough. But no matter what, the atonement of Christ will help you to get through it. Your mom will love you no matter what, and I will keep my arms around you as tight as I can for as long as you will let me.
I love you,
Your Mom
No comments:
Post a Comment