Life is full of up's and down's. There are going to be times when you have more energy and times when you have less. There are going to be days full of sorrow and days full of joy.
Such has been my life for the past couple of months - I have thought so many times that I need to write but I haven't been able to get any words out of my heart and soul in order to do so. I have tried to force writing, but I have been going through a lot of healing, self discovery and focusing inward.
I realized one day that I didn't need to prove to anyone how I was doing. I didn't need to explain my "absence" in writing or in my interaction with everyone around me. I didn't need to try and give excuses or have anyone really understand why.
There are times when there is private pain. There are times when there is public pain. There are chapters when dealing with the challenges and adversities of life should be declared from the roof tops and other times when they are a silent battle between me, my husband and the Lord.
Specifically with the up's and down's in marriage and the relationship between husband and wife... no one needs to be party to those adversities and challenges. Treating my relationship with your dad as sacred and private is part of what makes our marriage and CAN make our marriage completely unbreakable.
I choose to live my life full of flow. The private flow of my life in the last six weeks will remain just that, private. There will be a time to make it public, but that time is not yet.
I love you,
Your Mom
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