It's Time To Move - Not Sure Where Yet

 Dear Kids, 

We found out that we have to move from our house this last week. It's been a little bit of a rollercoaster. I have been feeling like change has been coming for a while now. After everything happened with Shayla I asked God if that was the change that I was feeling and He said, "That was some of it." But there is more. 

So I have been praying very specifically for your dad to find the place in the world where he knows that he is creating value uniquely in the way God has in mind for him, especially with his career time on this earth. He wants to make a difference and be of value using his time everyday and he has been 'itching' for new experiences that will stretch him into becoming more of the man that God has in mind. I've been praying for this for a while now. 

Last Sunday I fasted specifically for God to "part the waters" so to speak, for our family. For Him to open the way for us to know where we need to be moving. 

The Monday morning after I fasted we got the phone call that the owners of this house want to sell it and so we need to move out. That was definitely part of the result of prayers and fasting for God to part the waters for us. Parting the waters includes us being in a different area and place.

Where that needs to be? We don't know yet. Monday when I got the call I was really angry and frustrated that we were still in the financial place that we are and that we can't buy a home of our own. I had to really work through those emotions, and I felt bad that anger was my first reaction to God parting the waters for us. But I repented of that one ;-). Tuesday I felt like, "The world is our oyster! We can do anything and go anywhere we want!" so we started talking about realistically what we could do and where we could go... including Guatemala! After going through that rollercoaster, the rest of the week I settled into the feeling of, "God, you know where You want us to be. Put us there. You have always had our back. You have always shown us where we need to go. I trust you now, I trust that You will show us where You want us. I'll go where You want me to go." That has been my feeling ever since. 

As of now, we don't know where we are going to go, or what is right yet. We have really considered Guatemala. Seriously considering it actually. We need to save up some money to be able to do that and we talked about going to Idaho for a couple of months to be with Papa and Mimi so we can save some money. That would be a really good option actually. But the other day the gravity of that really hit me a lot, and so I've been marinating on the reality of what that really needs to look like - we'll see. 

Right now I know that God will show us where we need to be. I have no doubt about that at all. Sometimes that waiting to find out is a little challenging, but I know He will show us where we need to be and what we need to be doing. 

I always have more to learn on this mortal journey, but wherever we are led, I know it will be the right place. 

I love you kids, home is where we are together,

Your Mom