I am feeling very content tonight. Today I just lived in the moment, in every present moment.
I woke up at 5am to you punching the love sac like on 'Wreck It Ralph' when he punches down the road. When I walked out you said to me, "Mom, I am just up waiting for daddy to get home." I told you your dad was going to be home 'in the morning' when I put you to bed. You obviously missed him so much this entire week. It brought tears to my eyes, to feel and remember the true emotion of children, 'living in the moment'. You didn't care that it was 5am and your dad wasn't going to be home until at least 8am. You were following your gut, being completely out of the box and just purely waiting for him, because you love him.
So I made a decision to live in the moment today, not to live in the disappointments that 'could have been' my day. I wanted to go to Vegas with my sister-in-laws. I wanted to get my hair cut. I wanted to go to a sealing in SLC. I wanted to participate in a race. I wanted to be a part of a show... all of which were happening today. But I made a decision to be home instead, because of various reasons.
And you know what? There are no accidents. Ever.
Seeing you waiting for your dad helped me a lot. Seeing your pure love and innocence inside of a simple decision you made to live in the moment for your dad. And so I just enjoyed today. Everything that came and went. Greeting your dad, going to the gym, taking all of you guys to the water park, going to your soccer game, having some alone time, talking a nature walk, going grocery shopping, snuggling with all of us on the bed, playing hide and seek, making dinner, cleaning the house, watching a movie together.
I love you son... you are an amazing man.
Your Mom
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