Screaming Baby

Dear Elijah,

You have decided that screaming and screeching are really cool. You scream and screech soooooooo loud as much as you can. It actually might be the death of me and my brain. I can't focus on anything else whenever you decide to voice whatever opinion you are trying to get across.

Today when I was really at a 'wit's' end moment because of all the noise, I was very promptly reminded of a story that I have written about before when Natalia was crying and screaming as a baby. I had this story flash to my heart when I couldn't take it anymore.... and it made me look at you completely differently.

It's about a friend who WISH she could have a screaming baby.

This friend had a baby that was just over a year old that drowned... just a couple months older than you. They did everything they could to save her, but to no avail. When this friend got home from the hospital, from saying good-bye to her baby, she had to go out on a walk to try and 'feel some kind of warmth'. While walking farther and farther, with tears streaming down her face, she noticed a mom walking with her baby on the other side of the street. The only thing she remembers is this mom who said to her baby, "Please STOP crying!"

As this friend tells the story the only thing she says after this point is,"I would do anything to just hear my baby cry and scream again."

So... Elijah... when you scream and screech - and I feel like pulling my hair out.... I will sit down with you, cuddle you close and think, "I am so grateful that I have a baby I can hear."

I love you,

Your Mom