I feel sad sometimes that I don't get as much time with you as I did the first two. There are so many days when I feel like you don't get the needed attention from me that both Gabriel and Natalia received so well because I had more available energy to give to them so equally.
Tonight was one of those nights. You were having a hard night. Everything was making you cry. Everything I tried to help you didn't work. Everything I tried to do - to teach you a better way of communicating with me - just made you more frustrated. I was back and forth with the other kids and moving slowly to fulfill the various requests of everyone because of other demands on the schedule as well (Basket Brigade management, my foot so I can't move, getting things ready for the Thanksgiving trip, getting ready for the wedding, church assignments, homeschooling, and trying not to feel overwhelmed by the ever growing amount of laundry that is always there and worse when I can't walk!).
You get the picture.
Your love for me just soaked through your little body into my heart. I needed that time with you tonight. You needed that time with me tonight. I love you so much and I don't want you to ever feel like I am "putting you off"... even though there are many times when everything that demands time from me that it seems that way to you.
I love you no matter what. I love you all the time and forever. I am so grateful you are my determined, handsome little man. I love everything that you are and everything that you have to do.
I love you,
Your Mom
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