Dear Elijah,
I had to write for just a minute about your experience at Papa and Mimi's house during the whole ordeal to get Joshua here.
When I went on bed rest Mimi suggested that you go up to her house. You went up the Sunday before Joshua was born and came back the next Sunday... but it seemed like longer than a week that you were away. You had an okay first couple of days... but after that Mimi said you just started to break down. You knew you were the only one on "the trip" and you really were having a hard time.
Tuesday after you got there you finally were okay talking to me on the phone when you went to bed. You were just crying, "Mom, I need you and I want you and I miss you!!". We both cried and cried that night while we were on the video chat with each other. I can't believe how much my heart just yearned to be with you and to have you close. But I knew that this was the best thing that could have happened. I had to rest and after having the baby I knew that it was the best thing we could have done to have you go on the trip so I could recover more effectively.
But man... it was hard on both of us! When Jonathan went up to get you from Papa and take you to Dani the next Sunday, he said you were just having a hard time. He stayed at Krista's house with you for a while because you didn't want to be around anyone else and you were just crying. He called me with you on the phone and you just said, "Mom I need you!". My heart just was breaking. Uncle J helped you feel better, helped to clear your energy, and helped to know that you didn't do anything wrong! You just got to go on a trip for a little while to Mimi's house. I kept telling you how brave you were and that you hadn't done anything wrong and that we loved you much and missed you so much!
When Dani got to our house that night with you, Talia and I were waiting on lawn chairs outside for you. When you saw us you just yelled, "Hi mom, Hi Talia!!!". You were soooooo excited. You just ran to me! I gobbled you up in my arms. Then you went in and just played with Gabe and Talia to your hearts content. It took you a few hours to acknowledge the baby, but when you did, you haven't stopped since! You touched him soft on his head and gave him such great kisses. And now you are perfect pals.
the lesson from this was... sending away one sibling so small was a bit of a mistake. Mimi thinks that if Talia or Gabe had been with you, it wouldn't have been so hard on you. But being by yourself, you had a really hard time being away from everyone. Another lesson is truly what a blessing it was for me and my recovery. I missed you dearly, but it was what I needed at the time. The other lesson is... I never want my family to be apart very much in the future until you can handle it better! Talia and Gabe were actually a bit jealous that you got to go to Mimi's house all by yourself and they didn't get to go!
Little hearts are so tender, but resilient. You have bee wonderful and I'm so glad to have you home.
I love you,
Your Mom
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