There is a movie called "Inception". The basic storyline is about a man who has the technology to insert himself into other people's dreams. He uses this technology as his job. He and his wife end up going "under" for a long enough period of time in their dreams to be there for years and years in their minds, but only for a day in reality. He comes to understand that he can place in her mind a "thought" that will dominate all of her behavior when they finally wake up. This deep thought placed in the subconscious mind is called 'Inception'.
He ends up being hired by someone to place an 'Inception' subconcious thought into a competitors mind in order to change the course of his company.
There is a purpose to me telling you all of this I promise!
I have been doing quite a bit of inner work, especially since the mother's homeschool retreat in September that I went to. I had so many validations from the spirit at that retreat.
Some of the inner work I have been doing consists inside of my feelings and relationship with your dad. I have always had this underlying feeling that if any "success" was going to happen in our family, if any "recognition" was going to come to us, if any "building" of ourselves was going to happen, it would be because of me. It has been a predominant but underlying thought I have had for many, many years. In my meditations, I have always visualized and felt that I was the more dominant reason in my meditations and visualizations in our future.
I knew this was wrong, but it was still a deep feeling of mine. So I started changing my meditations in the last month or so. I have been visualizing your dad and I together. I have a practice during meditations of almost "seeing" my mind opening on the top and light and knowledge is being poured into it from heaven. I changed that so instead of seeing just "me" in this visualization I have been seeing your dad and I together, standing side by side and when the top of our heads open, it happens across both of us. I have another practice of seeing a spark in my heart and it expands from inside of me to all around me, to filling my home, filling our town and then filling the world. I have changed that so instead of seeing just spark in my heart, I have been seeing your dad and I together and the spark is between both of us and then expanding from there.
This has been really powerful to experience these types of visualizations and meditations with both of us in mind, especially to get away from the "it's all because of me" thought and complex. It is wrong to be so 'me' focused.
Since doing that, there was a day when I was sitting on the porch while you were all playing with friends in the circle. Then I had this inspiration come to me, "Andrea, you have an inception thought that you placed in your subconscious years ago that Satan is using to destroy you and using to 'get' to you and keep you and Brent from accomplishing things together and getting to a level together in your relationship."
When the spirit told me that I started feeling and thinking about what it could be. Then I had flashes back from when we were dating. And then I knew! the thought came as clear as day. The inception thought was this:
I don't know if Brent is the man it talks about in my patriarchal blessing.
THAT was the thought I had several times while I was dating your dad. I had those thoughts because of your dad's past sins and choices. In my blessing it talks about that if I use the power the Lord has given to me with my testimony of Jesus Christ, then my family, my children and my husband will not fall to the temptations the adversary places in our paths. There are also other places in my blessing that it tells us very specifically what we will be doing, involved is sitting in some of the highest councils of the church and being an inspiration to couples, families, and individuals all over the world.
Now, as we are here in this story, obviously it is 12 years later and I did choose to marry your dad. I had several experiences that confirmed to me the power of us being together that it was the right choice. But I have always been confused with the promise in my patriarchal blessing about my spouse not falling to the temptations of the adversary, especially because of the places where Brent has had to come back from. I either put all the responsibility of his choices on my shoulders and that I didn't use my power "right", or that he wasn't the right man. THAT was the inception thought that has been in my subconscious for YEARS.
When the spirit hit me with the inception thought, and how Satan has taken that thought which had originated from me, and twisted it in my mind and my energies in my marriage, I couldn't believe the power I have been giving away.
I talked to your dad about this as well. I told him about this whole experience and then he had some very good insight for me. He said this, "Andrea, it's interesting because when I hear the word 'fall' I think in the scriptures when the people fell completely away from the church and completely lost their testimonies. Even though I 'gave in' to temptations around me, I never fully 'fell'. I knew every second of everyday that I was making the wrong choices. I KNEW the church was still true, I never lost my testimony, I never lost my love from my Heavenly Father and my Savior, I never lost my testimony of Joseph Smith. I never fully "fell". And that is because of your promise in your blessing. I 'gave in' and made bad choices... but I never 'fell'."
It has caused me to pay attention to other "inception" thoughts that I have placed in my subconscious mind, and rewriting them where appropriate.
So I want you to remember how powerful your thoughts are. They are SO POWERFUL. Thoughts truly do become things. We have ALL the control and power over our lives because of the way we feed our minds, hearts, and spirits through the power of our thoughts. Don't ever let anyone tell you differently. Our thoughts are tangible things, we create the whole melody of our lives.
I do believe that things happen "to" us. But I believe it is 95% of the time that things are "created" by us. Sometimes, the Lord places things in our laps that we didn't invite there. But that is rare. MUCH more rare than we want to admit. It is more acceptable to feel like 95% of the things that happen in our lives have happened "to" us instead of seeing the power we have in our minds and souls inside of the creation of our lives. We create. We are Gods and Goddess's in embryo. We have more power than we can possibly comprehend. And that is not prideful or boasting. It is simple fact. The other part of this is that GOD wants us to discover this power. That is one reason why we are NOTHING without him. He is our mentor on this road to Godhood. We cannot do it without Him. We must have Him by our side the entire time. But most of the time the things that happen to us are created by something we have either thought, or caused to happen to us.
I love you kids. Pay attention to the thoughts you place in your subconscious. It is life changing.
Love,
Your Mom
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