I am taking on Elder Eyering's challenge from a few conferences ago about writing down daily, at the end of everyday, how I have seen the Lord's hand in my life.
I have found myself really having a hard time emotionally, spiritually and mentally for the last little while. There are a few reasons for it, but for sure one of the reasons is because I need to practice gratitude a little bit more frequently. Especially for you kids... to know that I have a testimony of my Savior. There are so many times my frustrations come out and you see what no one else in the world sees. There is a side of me that no one knows but my kids and my husband. So especially for you, I need to write these words.
The Lord has been present in my life today because:
1. Feeling the spirit in church and especially sacrament meeting. I felt the spirit strongly and He testified to me. That means I am still 'counted worthy to receive'! I am on the path and the spirit is in my life.
2. I had a Young Women's meeting tonight and it was so good for my soul to be around other women of God who have such a strong testimony of the gospel. We women need each other to buoy each other up.
3. A peaceful night with putting everyone to bed. The last few days have been hard. I have been short tempered. I have lost my temper. So tonight it was peaceful and I kept my cool. I am grateful for that and how quickly you feel asleep!
4. That your dad is not thousands of miles away! He is here in town and close. I am so grateful he is close.
5. I finished "Thomas Jefferson Education" tonight. I love the reminder that 10 years before the Founding Fathers were called upon to do the great things they did, they were just like you and me. They were working to get out of debt, mend broken hearts, getting through school, refinding careers... but they were being prepared for great things. The reminder that if I continually feed my soul with classics and words of God I will be prepared to do what the Lord would have me do with my mission on this earth.
6. I have a house that doesn't get flooded! There are many people in our neighborhood that had their houses flooded lately. I am grateful that we haven't had that issue!
7. We are all healthy. I have a friend whose husband is fighting brain cancer. She has no idea if she is
8. Kids who are smart. You are so smart that you crowd me with your requests a lot of times. All the things you want to do by yourselves and the trial and error of trying. But it is a blessing... a blessing for me to remember in the middle of the messes.
9. A reminder today that there are a lot of women who are lonely. There are a lot of mom's who are lonely and who wonder how they can do it all. The pressure we feel is deep... but it is worth it. I know that. I love hearing and knowing from other strong women of God when they struggle but they have the big picture and still move forward keeping the spirit in their lives.
I think that is it for tonight. There will be more tomorrow! I have the hand of God in my life. Everywhere. It is my choice to see it.
I love you,
Your Mom
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