Chapters

Dear Natalia,

I believe everyone has chapters in their life. There are many chapters I have lived and will live. But I can't even say how thrilled I am that my chapter, right now, is to be with you.

Everyone has a different path to parenthood. For me becoming a parent, when I am a little older than the 'norm' (if there is a 'norm'), has been perfect. Before having kids I was able to do quite a bit. I had many 'chapters' per say. Traveling the world, accomplishing finances, professionally working, charity giving, inner city youth experience, learning another language, building relationships, consulting experiences, performing on stages, gaining education... I have already had many chapters.

I can't even tell you how grateful I am that I am content with THIS chapter right now. I am still trying to decide what to call this chapter, but I think it will be "Mommy Contentment". I remember even while doing so many things, I had dark nights when I was alone, for a long time. It was very lonely and very hard. Many prayers went to the heavens with my tears.

Hundreds of times I remember thinking, "I will NEVER take advantage of and condemn my husband. I will never complain about being a mom". And I am not. I hope you know I am soaking you in, breathing your energy, feeling your happiness, learning more and understanding heaven through you.

There are many chapters ahead. I will be 'out and about' once again with many different projects. But I am not impatient for that time to come again. I am more than happy to be living in the NOW with you... being content in this chapter because I know it will last but a moment. Right now, I am so grateful that you, and your brother, are my projects.

I love you,

Your Mom