The thoughts of "not enough" can attack in so many different ways. I have been working on my thoughts of abundance for over 15 years, and still old blueprints sneak in and take over before I even realize what is happening.
The latest manifestations of "not enough" has been in the last few months. We have been doing better financially in the last couple of years than we ever have in our marriage. We still have bigger goals to achieve, but we aren't just 'surviving" anymore. We have been in the space of thriving and getting out of survival mode. It has been such an AMAZING blessing.
Then a couple of things happened to remind me to stay as a watch guard over my thoughts always, because scarcity thoughts creep in so easily, it is one of the biggest tools of Satan.
The first example is with taxes. Around the beginning of the year, 3 months ago, the thought of "what if the IRS starts garnishing your wages again and attacks your bank account before you have any idea what is happening" came to my mind.
Background: There were payments to the IRS that your dad owed from some business transactions that were made. It was a hard time in our financial lives with businesses failing and things coming due from every side of the spectrum. Everything went to collections, we lost everything, and we didn't have the available income to take care of any obligations, including past tax issues with business things. If you haven't ever been in this state, let me tell you what, everything becomes a blur. You just can't figure out which way is up from the stress that is constantly banging at your door. We kept putting things off, frozen in many cases by stress and fear and we had no idea how to take care of the issues in front of us. We had to crawl a little bit everyday emotionally in order to find answers. Well, the collectors still come calling, and the IRS is no exception. The meager income that we had was taken away in an instant when they raped our bank account of a few hundred dollars we were going to use for gas and paying utilities. It was a low blow, but a manifestation of our "being acted upon" state that we were in at the time. We were allowing the IRS to act upon us instead of acting ahead of time.... coming full circle, we eventually did find someone to help us with all our issues, he put a halt on the garnishments, and we were able to move forward and breath again.
Well, we eventually did a settlement with the IRS, which ended up being rejected, and how we are in the process of doing a "resettlement". It takes a lot of time, but we have been following legal counsel with how to take care of the situation.
Fast forward to 3 months ago from that point. Because of the IRS rejecting the initial settlement and we were in the mode of going through finding another option, the thought came to my mind above one day, and all the PTSD from the financial situations from the years before came flooding back into my heart and mind again.
Once that thought came, I had to immediately recognize it for what it was. A fear thought. A scarcity thought. But, it had enough of a root, that I noticed over the next few weeks that, once again, I was giving a lot of energy to this "What if the IRS takes money again without us knowing?" thought.
So I got a hold of our legal counsel and asked them about this. They said that they were going to take care of the issue so the IRS stays away from our accounts during this transitionary period of figuring out another settlement. After getting that communication, I started to breathe easier. Any time those thoughts came back I could tell them to leave because we had taken care of the situation.
Well, just a couple of weeks ago something came in the mail that was a manifestation of the energy I gave to those thoughts. It wasn't a bank garnishment from the federal IRS, but a tax audit from the state of Utah department. Those are always fun. We got the paperwork from our accountant to show that we had filed taxes for the state and sent it in. But the spirit, during the process of taking care of it, whispered to me, "Andrea, your thoughts have more powerful creative action than you realize."
Second example: money to go to Italy. Last year in the fall your dad's commission payment structure changed to be paid every quarter instead of every two weeks like before. We have been being paid the same amount of money, but in large chunk every three months instead. It has been a challenge to plan everything out perfectly ahead of time to make sure that we have everything taken care of with our obligations. We have paid everything ahead of time that we can, and we have to plan out the money necessary for fuel for cars, groceries, any emergency issues, etc. What we have found is that the last 3-4 weeks before the next commission check comes, we are VERY strapped and have ended up using savings money to get through. Because of this, those feelings of "not enough" have crept back in, very subtly. It is a lie, this "not enough" thought, because have plenty for everything we need, but those blueprints of money stress are something that Satan wants to keep using with us in order to keep us from moving forward.
So, low and behold, we have been manifesting "not enough" over the last couple of months. Everything has been tighter, things have come up that have taken extra income that we didn't have, so we have been taking out of savings to take care of it. We ended up being much tighter financially going on the Italy trip than we had thought we ever would be.
It has been the manifestation of allowing the "not enough" thoughts to take over our thought patterns. This is evidence of our creative power. The Spirit keeps telling me to take these situations as lessons, but do not let the "not enough" thoughts take over our minds again, because our power of creativity and manifestation are more potent than we have any idea.
So to combat the thoughts of "not enough"... what do you do? How do you get rid of them? First of all, I don't fight them. I talk to them when they come. I say to these thoughts, "I see that you have entered my mind again, and to what purpose?" Sometimes the 'thoughts' talk back and say, "To bind you and to scare you." So then I say, "You are not welcome here, and it is time for you to leave." Then I replace these thoughts with abundance thoughts that are TRUE thoughts. I am not feeding untruth into my mind. I am feeding it light and knowledge. The TRUTH is we do have more than enough. We are well taken care of. I see all my blessings around me and in my visualization I see my heart opening up and my arms opening wide to hug it all. I hug my family. I hug my home. I hug my furniture. I hug all the modern conveniences. I hug the angels watching over me. I see the angels surrounding my home with light and power. I hold my arms open to the world and invite all the goodness in and all the stewardship that comes with greater expansion.
Then I focus on my Savior. I see His face in my mind and my heart. I invite Him into my soul, I ask Him for a blessing.
This whole process is a beautiful process that has freed me from the shackles of fear and doubt that Satan puts over me constantly. Satan is always attacking me, but I use these tools of light in order to uninvited him. And he leaves when the light is powerful enough because he cannot withstand the presence of the Savior.
I felt strongly to share these experiences with you because of the way they have confirmed to me, once again, of the power of my thoughts and my creative capacity as a future Goddess.
I love you kids. You have all this same capacity. I know you will go through trials that will teach you, if you let them. They are the greatest teacher, I praise my God for the IRS. I truly do. It has been one of my greatest teachers in my life.
I love you,
Your Mom
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