Dear Kids,
How much can happen in such a short period of time.
Mimi is going to pass away any day now. She got ill about two weeks ago and it sent her body into a tailspin that she isn't going to recover from.
We know she has heart issues and pulmonary issues, respiratory failure... but we are also pretty sure that she has had cancer for a while that has been eating her alive basically. This recent illness she got, I'm pretty sure is Covid-19, sent her body into failure that she won't recover from.
It's any day... really any time that she will pass away.
Oh how I love this woman. She was a BIG act to follow as a mother. Really big. She did so many amazing things for us as we were growing up. She raised a righteous family. She raised beautiful contributing people to society. She told us first and foremost that she doesn't want anyone's testimonies to be damaged because of what she is going through, she wants her posterity to remain strong and righteous.
They need her on the other side in order to help with getting Jesus back. She is going to be AMAZING at that work. Jesus coming back has been her thing ever since I was a child. She has been watching for Him to return her whole life... now she will see Him much sooner than we will. I am a little bit jealous of that honestly.
In honest reality I feel like getting this recent sickness has been a huge tender mercy in order to get her to the other side before she experienced too much pain. I am grateful for that. She has been uncomfortable for sure the last couple of weeks, but she's not in horrible pain. That is a really big deal. I'm so grateful for that.
We told all of you that she isn't going to get better and that she is going to pass away soon this morning. It's been a really emotional day for everyone because of that.
Gabe, you have been feeling things silently. I will find you sitting in a chair and just starting to cry. Then I ask you if you want to talk about it and you don't have any words for it. You have randomly gone in and sat by Mimi so you can just be by her.
Talia, you were VERY emotional and you wanted to go and hug Esti IMMEDIATELY after we talked about it. You wanted to go and see her and hug her.
Elijah, you followed Talia out and wanted to make sure that she was okay. Then you kept processing that you didn't really believe it. You kept saying, "But mom how do you KNOW?" So we talked to you about that .
Joshua, you and Aviya have been each other's best friends and you don't comprehend what is happening.
Kids, I want you remember something.
Mimi poured her WHOLE SOUL into her mothering. Her WHOLE SOUL. And it's evident. We all have been filled with her light, testimony and love our entire lives. She dug into the gospel. She got to know it better. She kept studying when Jesus was going to be back and she was always looking for ways to make the gospel BEAUTIFUL.
She did. She was an amazing mother. She was a big act to follow.
I'm just grateful that I'm going to have her on the other side as my partner in crime to make sure you guys are okay.
God lead us to do this for the last couple of months because we needed to be here. We needed to spend this time here with her and with Papa. We needed it badly. That is a gift that will be with us our entire lives. Remember that God gave you the gift to spend the last two months of Mimi's life together with her.
What a gift. What a blessing. I praise God for it.
I love you kids,
Your Mom
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