Reminder Of The Moments I Have Left With My Kids

 Dear Kids, 

Today was Joshua's birthday. He turned five years old today! It's crazy how fast you are all growing. When you become parents, so many people will tell you that it goes by so fast... and it's true! Mimi would always say that, "The days are long... but the years are short." And it's exactly true.

I had a moment when we were out at the jump house today that I want to tell you about. Joshua requested to go to the jump house for part of his birthday "yes" day. While we were all there, I was jumping with you guys and having a great time. Then all of a sudden "100 Years To Live" came on. That song talks about that you are 12 for a moment, then 33 for a moment, then 70 for a moment... and keeps talking about these moments through your life and you only have so long to live. 

I just started crying in the middle of the jump house! I thought about Mimi and her moments. I thought about her life and then I thought about my life with you as your mom and I just stood there, on the dodgeball court while you were throwing balls right at me, and I couldn't stop looking at all of you and seeing all these "moments" flash before my eyes until all of a sudden you will be grown and out of the house. 

I only have you for a moment of your life. Just a few short years. Since Mimi passed away I have had a GREATER desire to spend EVERY waking moment with each of you and being your mom. I just want to soak it in because I can see that these moments are flashing right before my eyes and I want to enjoy all of them. 

We are only here for a moment of our eternal existence, and during that moment of physical life I get you to myself for just a small time period of that. I am humbled to think that God gave all of you to me and that I get to be WITH YOU all and how amazing you all are. I love you so much and I want to just LOVE you all like crazy. 

I know that life will keep hitting me in the face and the stress of it all, but I am going to make it a constant prayer to Mimi to help me to enjoy the moments with you, because they are fleeting and they are going fast. 

I love you kids. So much.

Your Mom